Well they might say Day 4 is the worst day but Day 5 was definitely my worst day so far. After having the day I had on Thursday it was brutal to wake up the next morning to a foggy head and grouchy mood. From the first few minutes with S I was very impatient and the day didnt' get much better.
We ate breakfast about 7am. S with her cereal and I had 2 hard-boiled eggs, yellow pepper and half an avocado. My mom stopped in around 1030am which was nice. She broke up the stale grouchy atmosphere in the house. S and M love her so much and get so excited to see her. She was a huge help because I had to get a picnic organized, as we were meeting my sister and her family at the park for a play and a picnic. Ever time I opened the fridge I wanted everything in it. I wanted the icing, the pop, the bread, the PB sandwich that I was making S for lunch. I was also desperate from my large McDonalds Diet Coke. All I could think was that would make everything better! I knew this wasn't true and I wasn't going to get one but that didn't help the situation.
Once lunch was packed, we said good bye to Nana and headed to Auntie K's house. We packed the strollers and made our way with the kids to the park. We had a swing and then decided it was time for some lunch. S had her PB sandwich and some apple and pear and one of my hard-boiled eggs. She then felt she was ready to play again, but unfortunately the play didn't get any better. S and P still struggled to play. So we packed up the kids and walked to the bank and grocery store. I was on the hunt for coconut aminos, which I couldn't find unfortunately. I'll have to search for it. While in the grocery store I wanted everything. I wanted the baked beans in the asian aisle. I wanted any cereal in the cereal aisle. I wanted
We then went back to Auntie K's house and the kids watch a movie for a little bit of down time and to get out of the heat. The past few days have been incredibly hot, especially for a September day. We are loving it. We watched Tangled which we all enjoyed. After the movie we headed home because both S and M needed to have naps before going go that night for dinner with friends who were in town.
This is where the really hard part begins. We all had a smaller dinner because we were going out for dinner with some friends. Shae had grilled cheese sandwich with some fruit and I had two hard-boiled eggs with some veggie. Not alot of food but satisfying enough to get me through until later that night.
My hubby picked us up at 7pm and we headed downtown. By 8pm we were sitting at the restaurant talking with old friends. My hubby ordered a beer and I ordered a soda water with lemon, not the same but I tried not to let it get to me. By this time I was quite hungry and feeling my inner demon on the rise. We had met at a BBQ house which I wasn't impressed with and was a little hesitate to look at the menu. Sure enough there was nothing on the menu I could order! Everything was covered in BBQ sauce and couldn't come without it. All the sides were coleslaw and bakcd beans. I became very irritated at this and very frustrated with my hubby who knew my eating requirements. I had been told we were trying to find a chicken and salad restaurant. After about 10 minutes I looked at the menu again and decided I could order the only salad on the menu, a cobb salad that came with; blue cheese, guacamole, hard-boiled eggs, tomatoe, brisket and pulled pork, and dressing. So I ordered the salad without the meat, cheese and inquired about replacing the salad dressing with plain balsalmic vinegar. This was not possible. The only had a premixed dressing and no substitute. I was VERY disappointed but I ate the salad dry. It wasn't very good and I was grumpy eating it, as my hubby had a brisket sandwich and corn bread (one of my favorites). But I pulled through and afterwards felt alot better for putting food in my stomache. So the whole dinner I craved everything; beer, coleslaw, baked beans, wine, pulled pork, BBQ sauce...but I made it through.
At 10pm my daughter wanted to leave. She asked if we could go home. We were under the impression that our friends were bringing their son but they didn't. So she was disappointed and tired. We settled our bill and started on our way home. The entire drive home I had to talk myself out of going through the McDonald's drive thru and getting my large Diet Coke. I was frustrated with the evening and tired and desperately wanting my fix! But, I focused on the road and turned the music up and got us home without one.
Once home we all immediately went to bed. I needed the day to be over! To stop the cravings and feel better.
Here's to a better Day 6.
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